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Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Wow, I'm nervous

Gah I'm leaving in like an hour for my interview/headshots/walking the runway at the mall.
I've never done ANY of these things before. What if I trip and fall, what if I say something ridiculously stupid-I usually do.
My stomach is A;LKDSF right now =//
What if I'm not pretty enough, I'm probably not. They're probably going to say-come back when you DON'T have nasty acne and love handles.
I don't know, maybe I'm just being way to harsh on myself

POINT BEING
I feel like throwing up and my head is kinda spinning, which is deff not a good thing before a interview

GAH CURSE YOU NERVES!

8 comments:

ThisisaScott said...

You have self-esteem issues >.>
You don't need a modeling agency to tell you what beauty is. In fact, are models even beautiful? Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iYhCn0jf46U

FaexLOVE said...

Most of the time I have low self-esteem, I just hide it. I just don't think I'm good enough for anyone. I'm not smart enough for my dad apparently I'm not skinny enough either-a "fat ass" in his book.

ThisisaScott said...

And other people's opinions matter because.......?
Are you good enough for yourself?
I think you're perfect just the way you are.

FaexLOVE said...

People's opinions do matter to me no matter how much I deny it, how much I wish they didn't.
I'm almost good enough for myself. There's some kinks I need to workout but I'll fix them eventually.
And thanks, that means a lot<3

ThisisaScott said...

Just make yourself happy. And no one completely disregards what others think of them, some of us just learn to be okay with the fact that someone somewhere isn't going to like something about us, and that's okay.

FaexLOVE said...

Well sure if someone I don't know doesn't know me and hates me I'm not going to care, it's more of the close friends/relatives that I care what they think about me because they mean the most

ThisisaScott said...

But how important can they honestly be if they think lowly of you, their own flesh and blood?

FaexLOVE said...

I dunno "/
I guess you have a point..